Well, time is drawing near for our FMoG (future man of God) Tucker, to get out of prison. I’m more nervous than excited. I can see growth in him, but I can also see where there needs to be way more growth. Personally, I was hoping for one of those dramatic, radical changes, and for him to be ready to take on hell with a water pistol; but apparently, that’s not how things will happen with young Tuck. At least not yet anyway.
We had the best conversation Saturday night. I’m truly amazed at how we can communicate now. He’ll actually listen to me, and I can listen to, and respect him. I told him that he might think I’m crazy, but that I was going to tell him anyway. I told him that God had shown me that He had a specific plan for him. I told him that I didn’t know exactly what that looked like, but that God was going to use him to do big things. I asked him if he believed me, and he said he did. I told him if he did, then he needed to start acting like it, and walking in it! I explained to him that even if he’s not getting in trouble with the law, if he wasn’t doing what God wanted him to do, he’d be miserable. I told him that God does not intend for him to lead a mediocre life.
He listened to me, and when I finished he said, “Mom, can we ever just have a normal conversation?” “What do you mean?” I asked. “You know, one where you’re not preaching to me?” I assured him that what I was saying was not preaching. I told him preaching would’ve sounded more like “If you don’t do this you’re going to go to hell!” And that if God told me to say something to him, or anyone else for that matter, I was going to do my best to say it. “We’ll, that’s preaching.” He said, laughing slightly, I said, “We’ll, then I can’t help it if God’s called me to preach!” “I guess I can’t argue with that.” Tuck said, and we both laughed.
It was so nice to talk, and actually listen to each other, and not end up arguing. That’s growth on both our parts. I have to learn to respect him as a man, even though he’s my baby, and he has to learn that I’m far more wise than he! 🙂
God is doing a work in our family’s lives. He’s teaching us to depend on Him, and not our own understanding. He’s teaching us to lean on His promises, not what the world would have us believe. He’s teaching us to trust in Him completely. He’s busy taking ALL things and using them for His good. He never fails! He never gives up! He’s long suffering and His love is everlasting.
I’m so thankful that God is a god of restoration and forgiveness, and that nothing is too hard, or too big for Him. I’m thankful that He uses all things to teach us, and that He wastes nothing! I’m thankful for good conversation with our son that I know only happens because of good conversation with our Heavenly Father! He answers prayers!
I look up to the hills. Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord. He is the Maker of heaven and earth. He won’t let your foot slip.
He who watches over you won’t get tired. In fact, he who watches over Israel won’t get tired or go to sleep. Psalm 121:1-4