Besides producing more snot than thought to be humanly possible, this has been a good weekend. I went to church for the first time in a while, and I finally got to see our boy! He looked good! Even the new prison tat wasn’t too bad. I’m just proud it’s on his arm and not on his neck or face! I always try to look at the bright side.
I asked Tuck if he was going to introduce us to any of his friends. I was trying to pretend as if we were visiting his second grade class and not prison. He said he didn’t have ‘friends’ in there. I told him I just wanted to share a joke, and maybe a candy bar with them. I even shared the joke with Tucker! Check this out. Me: Why does Snoop Dogg wear a rain coat? Tucker: shrugs his shoulders. Me: fo’ drizzle! Of course I gave a hearty laugh and a celebratory fist pump since he had not heard the joke before. Tucker kind of looked around. I figured he was looking for some of his ‘homeboys’ to invite to our table, and show off his awesomely cool mom, but he just grinned and shook his head. He wouldn’t even join in on our paper football game, after Steve had painstakingly made that perfect paper football? I guess he was too tired to hang out with his pals and play games. Great visit though!
As we sat there, in a room full of others visiting their incarcerated loved ones, Steve was saying how a few of the families looked like such “normal” families. I said, “Don’t we look like a normal family?” Steve said, “Um, no. Someone had to get all sleeved out. He kind of looks like he’s “been there.” I said, “I have a tattoo on my arm, do I look like I’ve been to prison?” He said, “Nah. You just look like you’ve been in the county a few times.” I wasn’t sure how to take that, so I just laughed.
As we sat there laughing and talking, I see a familiar thing in Tuck. It’s that feeling of, “I can never be “good” enough”. I see it in many people’s faces, read it in their body language, and hear it in the things they say. It breaks my heart to see that in anyone, but to see it in the person I helped create? That’s a whole different ball game.
I try to assure him that he is, and can be good, and he hears me; but a person can only KNOW that they’re good through the Holy Spirit. Knowing, and believing that you are good can only come through a relationship with Jesus. By learning about God’s character, and realizing that we’re created in His image and then patterning our lives according to His will for our lives.
There are tons of saved people who never reach the potential Christ has for them. What a shame! A ‘get out of hell free’ ticket is not ALL you receive when you accept Jesus as your savior! Nope! You are sons and daughters of the most high God! Joint heirs with Christ! You are adopted into the family! That means you get an inheritance!! And our God owns everything! When you have Jesus in your heart, YOU ARE GOOD! He washes us pure and spotless and because of Him, we are good. Period! God has exciting, and amazing things for all of us! No matter how many bad things you’ve done, being good is not unattainable. God’s waiting for you to accept what He has for you! Believe it. Accept it. Hold your head high and live to please the One who matters! An abundant life is possible for everyone!
This commandment that I’m giving you right now is definitely not too difficult for you. It isn’t unreachable. It isn’t up in heaven somewhere so that you have to ask, “Who will go up for us to heaven and get it for us that we can hear it and do it?” Nor is it across the ocean somewhere so that you have to ask, “Who will cross the ocean for us and get it for us that we can hear it and do it?” Not at all! The word is very close to you. It’s in your mouth and in your heart, waiting for you to do it. Look here! Today I’ve set before you life and what’s good versus death and what’s wrong. If you obey the Lord your God’s commandments that[a] I’m commanding you right now by loving the Lord your God, by walking in his ways, and by keeping his commandments, his regulations, and his case laws, then you will live and thrive, and the Lord your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess. Deuteronomy 30:11-16