Last night I had the privilege to speak the guys at the St. Clair County jail. I’m humbled that God chooses to use jacked up people such as myself.
I wanted to talk to them as a mother. Not to point out how they’d messed up, (no one needs that, we know full well when we’ve messed up) but to encourage them that God is bigger than any mistake they could make, or any crime they could ever commit!
No matter how old the man was (they varied in ages from young to old) when I looked into his eyes, I saw the eyes of a little boy who just needed hope. Some of them were clearly seeking The Lord and some came for a Little Debbie. Either way, God’s Word never returns void!
I talked to them about how important they were to their children; no matter how bad they felt they’d messed up, or how long it had been (if ever) since they’d seen them. I told them my story about how I’d gotten pregnant when I wasn’t married, and that I, regretfully, had told my son’s bio father never to call me again, that he was nothing more than a sperm donor, and that I’d find MY son a good daddy.
I talked to them about how a mother’s bond with her child is there before the baby’s born, but that a daddy’s bond is something that had to be developed. I feel like that’s what makes it so easy, with the least bit resistance, for a young man to walk away. Especially men in their position who feel as if they’re stuck. Which, clearly, they are not!
I told them that there’s a void that only a father could fill, and that no matter what their excuse, whether it be that they think their too screwed up, it’s too late, they’ve been told their child doesn’t want to see them, it’s too hard to deal with the ex, that they were nothing more than a sperm donor, their child is better off without them or that they’ve been replaced; whatever excuse they’re using not to be in their child’s life, they needed to know that if they’d fathered a child, they were important to them!
I told them about the mistakes I’d made as a parent, because I wanted them to know that, even though we have to take ownership of those mistakes, and the part it’s played in our children’s lives, God is bigger than our mistakes! He’s able to heal and restore in any situation!
I can only imagine how satan, and the world has beaten some of those men down. I’m sure in their lifetime people have told them they’ll never amount to anything. Some of them had probably been called a liar, a thief, a deadbeat dad, and told they’ll never change. Some of them have been called abused or maybe the abuser. I assured them that no matter what people had called them, that God called them HIS! And He’s waiting on them to fully surrender to Him, and that He would allow whatever had to happen to get them to turn to Him. I told them that God had a specific plan for them, or they wouldn’t be here! And that satan is always harder on those who can have the biggest impact for God’s kingdom! Then I asked them, “If that’s the case, don’t you want to know what God has for you?” Because it must be something really good or the devil would leave you alone!!
Four men gave their hearts to Jesus last night! Men asked for prayer concerning their children. One young guy there said he was one of the guys Tucker used to hang out with. He said he’d been one of the ones I, shamefully, admitted that I’d been so judgmental of. He said he felt like God had sent me there just for him. That he was a heroine addict and that his mom said she’d rather him be in jail than to get the call saying someone had found him dead. I know that feeling.
I’m so glad that I had the opportunity to share with those men what God’s done, and is doing, in my family. I’m especially thankful to see that God is working in the lives of Tucker’s friends. And I’m thankful that God used me to minister to someone, who unbeknownst to them, I’d despised.
Thank You Jesus for changing my heart, and for not wasting our situation. Thank You for allowing me to see people through Your eyes. Thank You for changing the lives of sinners and for loving every person the same!
“I don’t think the way you think. The way you work isn’t the way I work.”
“For as the sky soars high above earth,
so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think. Just as rain and snow descend from the skies and don’t go back until they’ve watered the earth,
Doing their work of making things grow and blossom, producing seed for farmers and food for the hungry,
So will the words that come out of my mouth not come back empty-handed.
They’ll do the work I sent them to do,
they’ll complete the assignment I gave them. Isaiah 55:8-11 the message