So, this is Monday and it feels like it already! I’m having a hard time staying awake this morning. I’m not sure if any of you know this, but it’s extremely difficult to write while sleeping.
This has been an interesting weekend to say the least. Friday night I got to witness God speaking through one of my dearest friends. He’s living proof that God is real, and more than willing to change any life, no matter how bad a person may seem to the world, if only they’re willing to surrender to Him. He shared a story of hope and deliverance. It gave me (as well as many others I’m sure) so much hope for our son Tucker, and others we know who struggle with addiction. He was brave, and I’ve never been more proud to say that I’m his friend!
I always wanted a house full of kids! For whatever reason, God never seen fit to grant me that wish. However, in looking back, He’s placed different young people in our home, and in our lives, that we’ve been able to pour into, and He seems to keep giving us those opportunities. Maybe it’s because we screwed up so badly with our own that He’s giving us a chance to redeem ourselves😊? I don’t know why, but I know I’m thankful!
Saturday, we gained yet another new family member. She already felt like family to me anyway, but now she really seems like family since she, and her dog moved in! And since we spent like a million hours looking for her keys! Which, I believe, was a test for me, to see if I could maintain my religion in front of an impressionable young person, and in a crisis situation. I’m not sure that I passed that test with flying colors.
I believe God puts people together for a reason. In a lot of ways it’s baffling to me how this young lady and myself ever became so close in the first place. It seems to have happened over night, and out of nowhere, but that’s how our God works isn’t it? He knows just who we need in our lives, and when. When I see her it makes me think of our daughter Averie, not so much in looks, but because they’re close in age. I feel, in a lot of ways, Averie would’ve been a lot like her. Very smart, very strong willed, independent, stubborn,, just a little on the rebellious side, (or maybe a little more than just a little😊) sort of sneaky, yet “in your face” at the same time, very beautiful, but not knowing just how beautiful, and full of life! Life that, at twenty years of age has, unbeknownst to her, really yet to begin. A life that has experienced pain, and has, maybe, been through more than some others her age. Things that, she may not yet realize, have made her stronger than most. She just has no idea how strong she is; nor does she realize that God has a plan to use everything she’s experienced for His glory! I’m not sure she understands that by being a part of our lives, not only do we pray for her, but she now has so many others praying for her as well! She doesn’t stand a chance! Bwahahaha! I’m not sure what God’s plan is in all this, but I know He’s got one! He always does! He has a plan for everyone’s life!
I get down and out sometimes thinking about how things are for Tucker, and others I love, then I remember that our God is faithful! Our God is stronger! Our God is higher than any other! Our God is healer! Awesome in power! Our God! Our God! I remember that our God will allow whatever it takes to make people realize they need Him! He knows what He’s doing, and even when I don’t feel, I’m going to choose to TRUST!! And I’m going to work on some things in my own life instead of worrying so much about what’s wrong in everyone else’s. God is good!
Know therefore that the Lord your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations, Deuteronomy 7:9