This is going to be a difficult blog to write because I’m typing with my left hand. Why am I typing with my left hand? Because my 23 year old man-son is very anxious, and in horrible pain, and asked me to sit by him and rub his head. Is that normal behavior for our son? Nope. However, it seems to be the new normal for the time being. There are a lot of things that are the new normal around here, and that’s ok, because God has a plan and I often remind myself of the promises He’s given me! That being said, if you see Tucker out somewhere, and he seems a little weird, doesn’t recognize you right away, or possibly says something slightly (or horribly) off color, just know that it’s the TBI, not Tucker. 🙂
Some of you may recall that before all this happened, Tucker had requested to go to rehab. He said he was tired of the way his life was, and wanted things to be better. While in the hospital, when he was able to halfway carry on a conversation, that’s what was on his mind. He was convinced that this happened to him because of something he’d done. He said, “I just can’t do this anymore. They nearly killed me. All I wanna do is work for my dad. I don’t want any of that other BS. I just wanna work for my dad.” At that moment I thanked God that, even in the midst of such a horrible, life altering situation, He was STILL working on our son! He will use every situation in our lives, the good, the bad, and the ugly.
As horrible as this situation is, I’m still, as usual, blown away by God’s grace and mercy. SO many people praying. SO many people offering food and offering to help do this or that. SO many people wanting to visit with Tuck. And when Tucker’s better able to retain and comprehend, I want him to know that most of the so called “friends” he had, aren’t the ones who’ve called, or stopped by. Everyone who has called, stopped by, or messaged me asking about him, (with the exception of one person, and she only called to start drama) are the ones who care about Tucker the most; and there are TONS of them! Even though Tuck had walked down a rough road, God never left him. Now, God is using this horrible injustice to show him that he is good, and just as worthy as any of the rest of us, to be called “good“. We couldn’t have made it without all the prayers! Thank y’all!
So, as I look at my son, who seems to be settling down, I’m so thankful that he’s alive and that, in Jesus’s name, he’s going to be completely restored! I’m thankful that, even when our human eyes can’t see, I know that God has a plan in all this, and that lives will be changed. I’m thankful that He’s revealing truth, and that I have no doubt that justice will be served. Tucker has done the crime and paid his share of time, and so will the person responsible for this brutal, cowardly, calculated act of violence. The God I serve is a God of justice and of truth! To God be the glory for all He has already done, and all He will do!
*The suffering won’t last forever. It won’t be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ—eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, he does. 1Peter 5:10