It’s weird. Normally, after I speak somewhere, I’m as giddy as Wayne and Garth (*Wayne’s World), after meeting one of their idols.
I’m an actress. When I speak in front of a crowd, I rehearse. I try to memorize my words, so I’m not just reading. I practice my inflection. I want to say everything just right. I love being in front of a crowd! It’s how God designed me. However, when it comes to sharing Him with people? I think He’s trying to get me to see that, no matter my personality or talents, I should be relying on Him!
Sharing the gospel is about telling others what God’s laid on my heart. It’s about allowing God to speak through me. It’s not about putting on a show, and it’s certainly not about me, or how I look.
Yes, I am inadequate, and that’s ok! For whatever reason, God’s choosing to use me, and my only job is to be obedient! God continually reminds me that “He is with me; He is all I need. His power shows up best in weak people.” Now I am glad to boast about how weak I am; I am glad to be a living demonstration of Christ’s power, instead of showing off my own power and abilities. Since I know it is all for Christ’s good, I am quite happy about “the thorn,” and about insults and hardships, persecutions and difficulties; for when I am weak, then I am strong—the less I have, the more I depend on Him. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
If God’s telling you to do something, stop waiting! If you don’t feel qualified for the job, you’re probably not! That’s ok! None of us are worthy! Step out on faith and just do it! He’ll give you all that you need! We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us!