It’s Friday! I remember when I would be SO excited about the weekend because it meant I would be doing something fun. Yeah. Ok. What happened to that?! Now, it seems as if my weekends consist of doing all that I was supposed to do during the week! I have no idea where all my time goes.
Yesterday was Steve’s birthday. I had plans of making a big dinner and having a nice celebration of his life, because I’m a good wife dang it! And that’s what good wives do! When I looked at the clock, and realized it was 3pm, and I had nothing to cook, and no idea of what I was going to cook, I decided I’d better run to walmart and grab a frozen lasagna. Yep. That’s what Steve got for his birthday. Frozen lasagna. I didn’t even give him the card I bought him, that I never even filled out. Yep. I’m a good wife, dang it!
Having Tucker here with me all day, every day is taxing. Most of the time he’s not doing anything, he’s just HERE! I’m used to being alone during the day. This whole ordeal has put a strain on our little family. It’s hard to explain. I mean, Steve and I had gotten used to living alone. Even after Olivia moved in, she was hardly ever home. Now? It feels as if we’re never alone! What the heck?!
I’ve talked with more people, who are going through hard times in their marriages, than I can count. I know all the right things to say. I can spit out the advice like a Pez dispenser! Putting that same advice to work in my own life doesn’t seem so easy right now.
It’s so easy to put your marriage on the back burner when the family goes through hard times. What’s not so easy though, is picking up the pieces from all the brokenness caused from not keeping things in perspective, and focusing too much on your problems, and not focusing enough on God. Keeping our eyes on God helps us keep everything in proper order. I don’t care what a family may go through; it’s never anything that’s surprising to God!
I can tell y’all that I have a LOT of work to do! My focus has been so off, it’s not even funny. I’ve worried, and stressed myself out so much that I look like the poster child for Proactive! I’m so out of kilter! I haven’t had this many zits since puberty! Shoot! I didn’t have this many zits during puberty! I vow to have a great, stress free weekend! I’m going to do my best, and trust God with the rest! And if that doesn’t clear up my face? I’m going to be mad at God! Just kidding! I’m going to go to the dermatologist!
28 “Come to me, all of you who are tired and have heavy loads, and I will give you rest. 29 Accept my teachings and learn from me, because I am gentle and humble in spirit, and you will find rest for your lives. 30 The burden that I ask you to accept is easy; the load I give you to carry is light.” Matthew 11