My name is Christa and I’m an online shopaholic. O. M. Gosh! This is killing me! I’ve never really shopped online before, but I now find myself filling up carts at numerous stores! The thing is, I’ve hardly bought a thing! What the heck is up with that?! I’m not even like most women. I don’t really enjoy going shopping. It’s a chore to me! So why, on God’s green earth, am I using my precious time aimlessly shopping online?!? Because MY FLESH IS WEAK!!! That’s why! I can’t even say the devil made me do it! It’s ALL ME! Because of my weak flesh, the time I usually set aside to spend with God, praying and reading His word, roughly resembles my online shopping habits. I’m aimlessly filling my cart, but I’m not buying anything (so to speak)!!
If we’re buying a gift for someone out of obligation, rather than from the heart, it goes from being a pleasurable experience, to being a burden. Why? Because we’re not wanting to give them a gift because we love them, or because we saw something we knew they’d love. We’re buying them a gift simply to make ourselves look better! And so it goes with our relationship with Christ, or anyone for that matter!
If I’m spending time with God out of obligation, or fear of repercussion, or so that, should anyone ask, I can say “Why yes! Yes I DO set aside time for God daily!” and yet, I can’t tell you a single thing I’ve read or remember anything I’ve prayed for, what’s the point?! (Actually what’s been going through MY mind lately is “if I hurry and do my “good” stuff I can SHOP!”)
Shoot! I may as well be out doing some kind of “fun” sin!! Who wants to meet me at the club?! Just kidding! I’m not sure I’d fit in that scene anymore! If I were to get drunk and start shaking it at this point in my life, I’m afraid there’d be way more of me shaking than I wanted! If I tried to “drop it’s like it’s hot” I’d probably end up dropping (dead) on the spot! Or breaking a hip at the least! EWW! That mental picture just gave me a whole new desire to be close to God!
The more spiritually mature we become, the more our Heavenly Father expects from us! Don’t we, as parents, expect more out of our older children than we do the younger ones? Isn’t it just human nature to give more to those who are more appreciative and more responsible? We’re made in His image right? Should we, then, expect His expectations to be any less of us?!
God expects us to grow, and with growth comes responsibilities. Our goal should be to PROgress not REgress! Dang it! This is painful! I guess it’s time to put my spiritual big girl panties back on! If I can’t find mine, I’m certain I can find a pair (at a bargain no doubt) online!!! http://www.spiritualbiggirlpanties.com. Oh yeah baby!!
Luke: 47-48 “The servant who knows what his master wants and ignores it, or insolently does whatever he pleases, will be thoroughly thrashed. But if he does a poor job through ignorance, he’ll get off with a slap on the hand. Great gifts mean great responsibilities; greater gifts, greater responsibilities! OUCH!