Why won’t God let me hate someone? I know it’s ok to be mad, but sometimes being mad doesn’t seem to be enough. The thing is, every single time I think about the situation my blood boils, but all I hear God saying is “Christa, your job is to love them, no matter how you feel.” This is one of those things where the only thing I can do is rely on God. My flesh is weak, still I know I can do all things through Christ.
When our hearts are broken it’s hard to remember that we’re not fighting against flesh and blood. The battle we’re fighting is a spiritual battle. A battle against the evil forces in the spiritual realm. We can choose to follow our feelings, which can (and will) lie to us; or we can choose to be led by The Holy Spirit. With a heavy heart I will choose the right way. I may not do everything right, but I pray that God, and those around me, will see the intentions of my heart and that when I do screw up, God will go behind me and clean up my mess.
I advise you to obey only the Holy Spirit’s instructions. He will tell you where to go and what to do, and then you won’t always be doing the wrong things your evil nature wants you to. For we naturally love to do evil things that are just the opposite from the things that the Holy Spirit tells us to do; and the good things we want to do when the Spirit has his way with us are just the opposite of our natural desires. These two forces within us are constantly fighting each other to win control over us, and our wishes are never free from their pressures. When you are guided by the Holy Spirit, you need no longer force yourself to obey Jewish laws. Galatians 5:16-18