Ok. Y’all ready for this?! This is me being honest. I’m fighting a rather hard battle against my flesh right now. What I want to do is to use this platform, God has so graciously given me, and inadvertently rip someone a new one.
Me: “But God! I promise I won’t mention anyone by name! No one will really know who I’m talking about!” Knowing good and well, I’m hoping that there’s a few people out there who do know exactly who I’m talking about! God: “But I’ll know.”
Ugh! That still, small voice that rings ever so loudly in my soul! That voice that causes me to check myself, and my motives. Sometimes I seriously just want to be vindictive. I really, really want to take care of this situation myself. But as much as my flesh, and my fingers are itching to type my words; my soul is itching to please my Heavenly Father.
I have to tell y’all something…..IT HURTS! Like, it’s taking all that’s within me to hold back! I seriously think I’m getting muscle cramps! If I did as I pleased, I couldn’t even say the devil made me do it, it would all be me! That’s embarrassing to admit, but it’s true. The thing is, even though sometimes I’m a dirty, rotten scoundrel; God still chooses to be sweet to me! He knows just what I need, when I need it!
Yesterday, a customer came in, and naturally we got to talking. That’s hard to imagine, I know. He was telling me that he, and his wife and kids were moving to the girl’s ranch to be house parents. Yada, yada, yada, I mentioned Tucker and his brain injury. In a few minutes he asked if I minded if he prayed for Tucker. Of course I said I’d love it if they did. I was assuming he’d meant that he and his family would pray for him later, but no! He meant right then and there! He prayed the sweetest prayer for Tucker, right there, in the showroom of our store. It was all I could do to keep from bawling! (I just, seriously, had to google the word bawling. I wasn’t sure if it was really a word, or if bawling was something only we, southerners say.) Anyway, that was definitely the highlight of my day yesterday. It was a great day indeed! Of course later that evening satan tried to ruin everything, but I’m not giving that joker the time of day!
That being said, I hope that God gives us all a chance, and the courage, to pray for someone, just as that stranger did for me. I hope that we all have the strength to beat down our fleshly desires, even when it hurts. I hope that we will all listen for that still, small voice, that gently speaks to our souls. Most of all, I hope that when we hear Him speak, we’ll listen, and be obedient. Now, y’all go have a great day!