Last week I dropped my phone, which happens to have a cracked screen, into a pan of water. I mean, it was immersed! The duct taped, Lifeproof (but obviously not Christa proof) case, with part of the top missing, just couldn’t hold up against the raging waters. I grabbed the phone as swiftly as I could, but not swift enough, being that you could see water inside my phone. I began making a mental list of everyone I needed to notify. I mean, I need to be reachable! Not to mention, I immediately began planning my day around acquiring a new phone. Laying my precious phone aside, I finished up my once relaxing, now frustratingly bitter foot soak and wondered how I’d make it until I could get to Verizon.
My head began to swim as, what seemed like, a million thoughts swirled through my mind. My nerves were shot! I was right in the middle of messaging someone. Oh my gosh! They’ll probably think I’m ignoring them! What if a family member has an accident or becomes gravely ill?! What if I get a notification that someone’s retweeted one of my tweets?! What if I get a really important invite to lunch?! I could miss a call! If I don’t respond friends and family might think that someone has stolen my phone! Or that I’ve been kidnapped! They might even think I’m dead! I don’t want to put the people I love through such torture!
As I was putting on my make up, which wasn’t that easy considering my hands were trembling, I looked over to see that my phone was working!! I quickly ran downstairs and plugged it into the laptop to backed it up, because I knew it was only a matter of time before it would die. The thought of losing all my stuff sent me to a whole other, much deeper level of shot nerves!
I finally got to Verizon only to find out that I can’t do an upgrade for another year. I felt sick. They informed me that I have to do an insurance claim. I felt even more sick. This would be the second insurance claim since I’d had this phone! At $200 a pop that’ll tick you right on off! Good gosh, the phone is only worth so much! I left, feeling beaten down by the world. I went across the street to the phone repair place, only to be told it would cost $120 to “fix” my phone with no guarantee it would even work! Why would I pay that when, for just a few dollars more, I can get a new phone?! I began wondering if God really loved me like He says He does. Then it hit me. I’d spent all this time working myself into a frenzy over a phone that, mind you, was still working! Not to mention, as I sat there with my shoulders and my stomach in knots, and my forehead squinched, I realized I’d not even once thought to pray about this whole situation. Right then and there I began a dialog with God.
First of all, I thanked Him for the fact that I own a phone. Then I thanked Him that it was still working. I asked Him to forgive me for being such a silly head and not thinking of Him first. I have to tell you that even though the Verizon guys told me it was just a matter of time before my phone bit the dust, it worked for an entire week without so much as a glitch! Then it died, and I’m ashamed to say that, once again, I repeated the whole process. Mad as an old, wet hen! Frantically trying everything to save information. Trying to log into things on my laptop only to realize that I can’t remember my stupid passwords!!! Anger. Bitterness. Rage. I can’t tell you how long it was before I calmed down enough to even think about praying. By the time God, or prayer crossed my mind, I felt so ashamed. And had y’all heard the words that had come from my mouth, and known the thoughts that had run through my mind, you’d know exactly why I was feeling ashamed! Nonetheless, again I prayed. Late that night my phone miraculously started working!!!
Some of you may think I’m crazy to think that God had anything at all to do with my phone. Some of you may think I’m crazy to think that, with all that’s going on in this crazy world, God would waste His time on something so trivial. Here’s the deal, if you think that, then you’re way dumber than I was for pitching a hissy fit over a phone! 🙂 Good news though! I’m about to make you a little less dumb so pay attention!
God cares about every detail of our lives! Not just the really important things. Not just the really life changing things. Not just the things that everyone knows about, or that’s visible to the world. He cares about every, single, detail that has anything at all to do with us! Yes, even a phone. This is stuff we know but, apparently have to be frequently reminded. At least I do! I’m not sure why I’d choose to allow myself to get all worked up over anything before I went to God for help, but it seems I do way more than I care to admit. I’m going to work on that! And I think I’ll start by reading God’s word! On an app that happens to be on my phone! My phone that happens to be working!
Even though you are bad, you know how to give good gifts to your children. How much more your heavenly Father will give good things to those who ask him! Matthew 7:11