As I embark on this new era, of being closer to 50 than 40, I’ve been pondering many things. First, I’m thankful for this birthday! Even though there will be birthdays that will sting (such as the big five-oh) I will always be thankful for my birthday. God has blessed me with so much! I have wonderful family and friends, a roof over my head, a car to drive, plenty of food to eat [obviously], I’m healthy, and God loves me! What more could a person want? Well, I will tell you a few things a person, who’s approaching 50, could possibly want!
First of all, is it too much to ask that my hands don’t ache if I use them? Is it horrible to admit that I’d really love not to be randomly hot and sweaty? Is it wrong that I long to sleep like I used to; without having to get up to pee, or waking up hot, or the slightest noise waking me?! Am I crazy for wishing my boobs looked like they used to look? Is it so wrong to wish that my hair wasn’t so gray? What about how I just don’t have the energy I used to?! Is it wrong to hope the doctor puts me on steroids so I can feel like superwoman?! Is it wrong to wish I didn’t constantly lose my keys, my phone, or any other thing I really need?! Are any of these things all that wrong?!
On the bright side, I’m easily amused! I can watch the Game Show Network for hours and hours! I can watch reruns of Family Fued and be happy as a lark! I’m content to go on vacation and do nothing. I rather enjoy a night at home, just sitting on the couch. I don’t care about things like I used to! I don’t want expensive jewlery, or cars, or the biggest house! I would rather spend my money on other things like really good wrinkle cream (thank you Rodan + Fields for my great skin!) and expensive glasses that I can’t see without, and more copays at the doctor’s office! See, getting older has its perks! Look, I’d be lying if I didn’t admit it bothers me that I’m PHYSICALLY not the person I used to be. But I’ll tell y’all this! I’m happy to say that spiritually, intellectually, and mentally I’m not the person I used to be either! I’ve learned a lot in the last 46 years of my life! God has shown me many things! He’s brought me through more trials than I care to revisit! He’s blessed me with more than I deserve! And because of Christ, I’m beautiful, I’m smart, I’m cherished, and I’m beloved; no matter how old I am!!! Here’s how I will choose to look at aging. God doesn’t see me as old! God looks at me and thinks “My sweet daughter, every day that goes by, it gets closer to the time when you will live with Me forever!” Amen!