It’s been a long time since I’ve been here. I’m not sure what the hold up has been, but i sure have missed y’all! It just seems like so much has been happening around here, yet time flys by, and I feel I’m accomplishing nothing! Please tell me I’m not the only one who feels this way! 2017 has got to be more productive!
Christmas was great, except for what I like to call the big Christmas blow up. I guess it is not a holiday without a Jerry Springer-ish family fued right? Or does that only ring true in my southern, redneck family? I will preface this story with this. Those of you who have read my blog know that I love Jesus. Y’all also know that I have been known to lose my religion and let my flesh sit in the driver’s seat from time to time. Well, I reckon that’s what happened this Christmas Eve.
If you’re the only girl in the family, one would think the guys would be sitting around waiting on you to get ready. Not the case at the Hawkins’ house! NO! I’m in there fixing my hair and painting my face and no one else is even attempting to get ready. Steve is outside doing something to his truck and Tucker is still sawing logs. We are supposed to leave in 30 minutes. I start calling Steve to tell him he needs to get ready. No answer. I send him a text. No answer. Tucker doesn’t like for you to wake him up in abrupt ways, so I text him. No answer. I call him. No answer. I repeatedly call and text both of them, and by repeatedly I mean like 10-15 times, and not one answer from either of them! By this time we are due to leave in 15 minutes. Now, keep in mind, I’ve seen, with my own eyes, Tucker get a text from a friend and wake up out of a dead sleep to text them back! My blood is starting to boil! I ring Tucker’s number again to hear a groggy hello. I tell him, in the nicest voice I can muster at this point, that we need to leave in 15 minutes. To which he protests that no one has tried to wake him up. To which I’m thinking why should anyone have to wake you up?! Remember, I’m already pissed. I told him that I’d been trying, that I had called and texted repeatedly. He proceeds to tell me that I had not. Y’all, I can’t tell y’all how mad I was. When I walk to Tucker’s door to tell him to get up, because he’s still in the bed, that’s when all hell broke loose!
There’s just something about your son yelling at you that sends a momma over the edge. I try to be understanding. Tucker is not a morning person, and I get that! And I’m sure I would’ve handled myself better, had this whole thing not been going on for 30 minutes. At least it had been for me! Some people were happily going about their business. Y’all, I snapped! Talking to me in that tone, at Christmas? What the crap?! The next thing I know, I, in my best mommy dearest/Reagan from the exorcist voice tell him to shut his effing mouth! Only, I said the real word! The mother of all bad words! Among some other not so nice things. I seriously thought our Christmas had been ruined! I blamed it all on Tucker, but the truth is, even though he was disrespectful, I should not have said what I said. Me being disrespectful to him didn’t help a thing! Not to mention, it’s just as wrong! Nothing is ever one sided! It was a bad morning! However, naturally, and thankfully, in true churchy, christianese fashion, we showed up to my mother’s house all smiles!
We ended up having a good day in spite of the big Christmas blow up! And I’d like to thank the Lord for that! That’s just how our christian walk is sometimes isn’t it? There will always be bumps in the road, and things that make us take our eyes off Jesus. And when we do, just like Peter, we will always sink! There will always be things that happen, that will make us lose our religion, or at least forget it for a minute, but God is always faithful, patient, and most importantly forgiving! We may take our eyes off Him, but He never takes His eyes off us!
I guess the moral of this story is, don’t let a blow up keep you from reaching your destination! Most of the time, if we choose to overlook an offense, a good time will be had by all! The Bible say, in Proverbs 19:11 that sensible people control their temper; they earn respect by overlooking wrongs. I guess I really dropped the ball on that one!
Then Peter called to him: “Sir, if it is really you, tell me to come over to you, walking on the water.” “All right,” the Lord said, “come along!” So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. 30 But when he looked around at the high waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted. Matthew 14: 28-30