Do you ever think about your life, and wonder if you’re stuck in some weird sitcom? You know, like Jim Carrey in The Truman Show? I do! Only, most of the time, my life feels more like an episode of The Three Stooges.
For those of you mature enough to remember The Three Stooges, you know that Moe was the head stooge, and would frequently slap, poke the eyes, or pull the ears of the other stooges, Curly and Larry. Sometimes I feel like my life is Curly and God is Moe, and God is using His big, godly hand to smack me around. Can anyone out there relate? Please tell me I’m not alone!!!
When I sit and think about my life, I assure you, this is not how I thought it would be! I thought my only son would be married and I would have at least one grand baby I could dote over, then send home. Needless to say, he’s not married and I have a grand baby I haven’t seen in 2 months because baby momma relapsed and ran off with her. She’s safe now with her maternal grandmother, thank God, and hopefully we will eventually be a part of her life. Well, I suppose the first matter of business will be to do a paternity test before I get too excited, although she does kind of favor our son.
My husband, Steve, has two kids from a previous marriage, neither of which we have a relationship with. They each have two kids. Neither of them have custody. We are finally getting to spend some time with his son’s daughters. Both parents are addicts as well.
My Maw-maw was one of my favorite people. All my life I wanted to be that kind of grandmother. The kind who had her kids and grandkids over every Sunday for lunch. The kind of grandmother that the grandkids cried to spend the night with. That’s how I thought it would be for me! It’s definitely not! And mostly I’ve just resigned to the fact that I may never get to be a normal grandparent. It makes me sad, but here’s what I’ve decided!
I’m going to make the most of what I have! I’m going to live my life trusting that God will heal relationships. I’m not going to allow the actions of others to control my life. Not even my own son’s. I’m going to pray more. I haven’t been doing a very good job of that lately… You know, the whole, “feeling like my life is an episode of The Three Stooges” thing?
Our relationship with God is like any other relationships, it has ups and downs. We get hurt, we get upset, we bargain and make promises; much like a marriage! It’s not always easy! The only difference is, unlike our spouse, who can sometimes be a butt (😊), God never changes! He’s sitting there waiting on us to straighten our act up and put our focus back on Him.
*“For I am the Lord—I do not change. That is why you are not already utterly destroyed, for my mercy endures forever.” Malachi 3:6*
I’ll get through this time in my life just like everyone else does. Until then, I guess my peeps will get to enjoy the super cynical, slightly harsher, more sarcastic, sometimes foul mouthed side of me! My life has been through a lot of crap in the last few years. It changes a person. It might help a few of you to take off your church masks for a minute and just be real too! Ijs.