Good morning friends! Long time no write! Since it’s been a minute, I’m going to get right to the point! Y’all, can I just admit something to you? That was rhetorical, by the way, because I’m admitting whether you want to hear it or not!
Sometimes I allow life to completely ruin me. I shut down, I have pity parties, I overthink, I blow up, I won’t get off the couch for the whole day, I replace dealing with an issue with having fun; you name a bad coping mechanism and I probably do it! I drive myself crazy!!! There are plenty of times, when I’ve found myself feeling as if there’s no hope. Not too long ago, when I was feeling hopeless, God sent me a friendly reminder about hope.
I was cleaning off the back deck. I hadn’t really been out there since our son, Tucker, had pretty much trashed it during his last little meth infused episode. As I was cleaning up, I found this knickknack I had bought a few years ago. It’s made out of metal and it spells hope. I’m terrible with measurements, but I’d say it’s 6-8 inches tall and about a foot long. Tucker has bent it all up, and pretty much destroyed it. I wiggled it around and straightened it up as best I could, and sat it on top of the fireplace, so that it is one of the first things anyone sees when they walk into the deck.
Why did I keep the mangled up knickknack you ask? Because as I was straightening it out, God reminded me that sometimes that is what hope looks like! Sometimes hope looks crumpled. Sometimes hope looks trashed. Sometimes hope isn’t pretty, but it’s always there!!! ALWAYS!
I’m going to hang on to that knickknack and to hope! As all of you who love an addict know, having hope is scary! When there are good days you find yourself bracing for the fall. During the bad times, you find yourself bracing for an even bigger fall. We’ve had a few pretty good days recently! I’m always cautiously hopeful! The caution comes in when I find myself focusing on the actions of the person and not what I know God can do!
For those of you living this out, my prayer is that we will all have reckless hope! Not in any person, but in God and His promises! Even when our hope looks crumpled and trashed!
*We put our hope in the Lord. He is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. Let your unfailing love surround us, Lord, for our hope is in you alone. Psalm 23:30-32*