Every day, when I get on Facebook, I look forward to scrolling through my memories. I love looking back and seeing the fun times with friends, events that have taken place, and even the controversial posts I made during the election😁. Here lately those memories have struck a different chord with me, and I’ll be honest, it was a chord I wasn’t expecting.
As most of you know, our son, Tucker, has struggled with addiction and all that goes along with it, for quite some time. With the exception of the very beginning, I’ve always been very open about all our struggles with this affliction. Some people call it a disease, some people call it sin, some people call it a choice… I say it is all the above! Anyway, once I got over the initial embarrassment, and the phase of taking it personally and blaming myself, I decided that if someone judged me or my child for this, that it was on them! I decided I’d politely tell them that God offered the same hope for judgmental assholes as he did for drug addicts😊! I make zero apologies for that statement. Amen? Back to Facebook memories.
So, I’m scrolling through over the last few weeks, and I start to realize how many times Tucker has been in rehab. With every picture I see I start remembering the high hopes. Then I start remembering how those hopes were smashed over and over again, and how badly it hurt. I start feeling embarrassed about celebrating yet another attempt at sobriety. I started thinking, people must think we’re stupid! Why don’t I just keep this stuff quiet?! Why celebrate when this could all blow up in our faces?! We really must look crazy to people! For a little bit, I found myself feeling really down and extremely embarrassed. Then I remembered that I don’t give a crap if people think I’m crazy! If they want to judge me for celebrating our son, or anyone for that matter who is trying, then forget them! I don’t need those people in my life! In fact, if that’s how you feel, you might want to delete yourself off my Facebook, because guess what?!? I’m celebrating the hell out of this…literally!! I refuse to let the devil have my son and/or my family! I choose to trust God no matter how hopeless it looks to me, or anyone else! How ever many times it takes, that’s how many times I’ll celebrate! Period! God made me a promise and He never lies! Not ever!
Y’all, if you, or a loved one is struggling with addiction, please don’t give up! Keep trying! Keep celebrating! Keep trusting! I cant speak as an addict, but as a person who loves one, I can assure you this road isn’t easy, not by a long shot. You’ll want to give up, and sometimes you do! That’s why it’s important to surround yourselves with people who can stand in the gap for you! In the book of Exodus, it talks about when the Israelites were in battle with the Amalekites. As long as Moses held up his arms the Israelites were winning, but when he would lower his arms the Amalekites would start winning. When Moses’ arms got too tired, Aaron and Hur sat Moses on a rock and held up his arms for him! *Exodus 17:12*
I can tell you this! I’m thankful for every Aaron and Hur I have in my life! For those who I know have stood in the gap for me these past couple years, when I’ve struggled to even pray! I got so tired y’all! But thanks to people holding me up, my strength is coming back!
Look at that face! If y’all only knew how bad off he was! If you only knew how hopeless I felt. I didn’t think he would ever go back to normal! I didn’t think it was possible…y’all just don’t know! I was mad! I was mad at Tucker and I was mad at God! Again, I’m so thankful for my Aarons and Hurs who held me up when I couldn’t do it myself. My faith is being restored and I’m watching a miracle happen!
This week be someone’s Aaron! If you see someone struggling, be a person who holds them up, not weighs them down! Celebrate wins! Encourage during the times of loss! Pray, hug, smile, listen, speak truth! That’s what we’re here for!
*We should think about each other to see how we can encourage each other to show love and do good works. We must not quit meeting together, as some are doing. No, we need to keep on encouraging each other. This becomes more and more important as you see the Day getting closer.* Hebrews 10:24-25