I don’t know about y’all, but sometimes my mouth gets way ahead of my brain! Especially when it comes to talking about people of whom I am not very fond. As much as I hate to admit this, there are times that it just feels really good to say really bad things about someone I don’t like! Especially when I feel like they’ve wronged me or mine! Anyone else care to admit to those feelings? It’s all fun and games until God ever so gently reminds me, hey you! You just called one of My kids a @%*¥! Oops! Sorry God!
Friday night I went to bed feeling convicted of something I’d said about someone. I’m very guilt driven, and have a tendency to let guilt take over, then it hit me! It’s like a light bulb went off in my head! I was convicted! That’s really a great feeling if you just think about it.
I haven’t exactly been in tune with God for the last couple years or so; at least not up to my standards. I’ve let other things come between me and my faith. I took my focus off what really matters. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I never felt bad about anything. Like I said, I’m very guilt driven, but to feel actual conviction and not condemnation?!? That’s a great feeling!
I was sitting on the toilet (yeah, yeah, we all do it!) thanking God for not giving up on me. I walked, into the living room, sat down, opened up my Jesus Calling devotional and read this, “I am pleased with you, my child. You don’t have to perform well in order to receive my love. The light of my love shines on you continually, regardless of your feelings or behavior.”
Y’all! That’s good stuff! It’s stuff I knew, but the enemy has a way of making us feel like we don’t deserve God’s love, or even His forgiveness. The thing is, we never have! God doesn’t love us because we deserve it! He loves us because He is love! He loves us flaws and all! He knew, before we were even created, about all the crap we would do, and He still chose to love us! That’s pretty freaking cool!
Today I am thankful! I’m thankful for a God who never gets tired! I’m thankful for grace and mercy, and I’m thankful that God loves all of us the same, even that ol’ @%*¥!
*Anyone who says he is a Christian but doesn’t control his sharp tongue is just fooling himself, and his religion isn’t worth much. James 1:26. OUCH! That stung a little!